Some days staring at the ceiling making
friends with shadows on my wall
Some nights hearing voices telling me
that I should get some sleep because tomorrow might be good for something. Hold on, feeling like I’m headed for a breakdown and I don’t know why (I might have a vague idea)
I’m not crazy I’m just a little unwell (a little???)
I know right now you can’t tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you’ll see
A different side of me (Sides?)
I’m not crazy I’m just a little impaired (repaired, scared, flared, despaired, prepared?) I know right now you don’t care
But soon enough you’re gonna think of me And how I used to be (somedays I don’t even remember how I used to be)
See me
Singing to myself in public
And dodging glances from my brain
I know, I know they’ve all been talking ’bout me
I can hear them whisper (you know, when folks do that cool exaggerated whisper which is actually much louder than the average voice) And it makes me think there must be something wrong (define wrong)
With me
Out of all the hours thinking (thinking, thinking, overthinking, thinking about chocolate, thinking some more, trying not to think then thinking about having a cup of tea and thinking a cookie would go well with, misthinking, watching some TV while trying not to think, misunderstanding my thinking, thinking about my thinkabilities with my thinkiest mind particles, unthinking then rethinking again, then back to overthinking, I think).
Somehow
I’ve lost my mind (of all the things I’ve lost I miss my mind the most)
I’ve been talking in my sleep (is my phone listening to that too?)
Pretty soon they’ll come to get me (they’ll have to find me first and I haven’t even found myself yet!)
Yeah, they’re taking me away (Oooh, nice, a vacation!)
Yeah, I miss how I used to be
How I used to be
You may be hearing this song by Rob Thomas/Matchbox 20, but I’m hearing it as Mad Monster Scientist from Season 13 of The Masked Singer...I won’t tell you who it really was (just sayin’, I guessed who it was, what can I say, I have music in my head 24/7 so I recognize a lot of the voices in my head, oh hello!!!), in case you haven’t watched, or want to watch. I wouldn’t want to do “spoilers”.
Anyway, this song has firmly stuck in my head and I decided the only way to remove it was to press it onto this page. Don’t blame me if it sticks to you next.
Struggling to read, sleep, find words, stand (and stay standing), sit, write, blog https://yadadarcyyada.com/2025/09/07/how-can-you-miss-me-if-i-wont-go-away/, well, anything, as usual, and now all the while watching the world spiral. I’m not sure if the world is crazy or just a little unwell, but right now, right now I can’t tell. Up is down and down is up, it’s distorted, distended, diseased, disgraced, disappointing, discouraging, dishonest, and frankly, mostly, distasteful. It feels as topsy-turvy as though I’m Alice down the rabbit hole, but without the cute dress. So here I am just trying to figure out if there’s anything left to figure out in the world.
There’s a bright side. I truly believe many people are still good. They still do good. I also believe more people waking up to reality isn’t bad, or as depressing as they think/thought. As weird, bad, and scary as things are: The Epstein Files; the economy; wars; tariffs; unaffordable and completely unaccessible housing; sky high grocery prices; crime; horrible, horrible, distracted drivers; loss; fear; chaos; endless ads, subscriptions, verification codes to distract us (seriously, companies need to invest in cybersecurity, why should I be your administrative assistant for free?); the rise of AI (seriously, look up what AI is doing, nothing intelligent about using it, it’s not worth it), https://yadadarcyyada.com/2024/02/21/i-am-not-a-robot/ and the list goes on and on…sometimes I feel like giving up, but then I remember, there’s still good, there’s still hope.
On the bright side, there’s no zombie apocalypse. The Walking Dead is kinda scary, no electricity, no internet, no indoor plumbing, and we’d run out of chocolate quickly!!! And sooooooooo much walking, I mean, it’s in the title!!! I really don’t think I could get passed the smell. Also, World War Z and 28 Days/Weeks/Years (28 Decades/Centuries?) Later “zombies” are way too fast.
No cloned dinosaurs are roaming on any island (there are much, much, much scarier things on certain islands).
No alien invasion, although at this point it might be a blessing. Of course, space has its own issues, Alien, Battlestar Galactica, The 100, Star Trek, Doctor Who, The Orville, Stargate, Cowboy Bebop, Firefly, The Expanse, look at the Star Wars universe, though Andor was an amazing watch, highly recommend.
Was truth always over-rated? In a way, would it be better to not know what snowmen really do in summer?
Be kind. Stay kind. Do things for people who can’t do anything for you. Smile. Laugh. Care. Love. Hope. Dream. Watch what you want. Question. Share. Read what you want. Question. Eat the cake. Give. Renew. Refresh. Laugh some more, with people (not at them, resist the temptation, I know it seems too easy sometimes but what does that say about us, not them?). Sing. Question everything. Write. Explore. Discover. Delight. Dance like everyone is watching. Hug someone (like, not some random person, someone you know). Be kind again. Eat the cookie or the salad…is there cookie salad cause I want that. Learn lessons. Believe (I want to believe). Turn off your screens (right after you read and share this post!). Go outside. Spend time with family and friends. Make friends, some will become family. Hope some more. Dream some more. Care some more. Courage my friends, we are so much more than they think we are, especially together.
It’s hard to see how an alien invasion would do any harm at this point! Nice to hear from you.
It’s great to see a new post from you! I love the Sarah Connor meme.
Thanks, so nice to be here. 🙂
Hope the week ahead atreats you kindly. 🙂
You’re welcome. I hope the week ahead treats you kindly as well.
🙂 xox
Well done, Donna. Always a delight when you post. 😁
Thank you so much, John, trying times but we’re all here together. 🙂
Hope this week is a good one for you and yours!!! 🙂
Thank you, Donna. 😊
Always happy to see you…Yay! You’re not crazy, you’re just paying attention to things you can’t do anything about, AT THE MOMENT. That’s a problem, being stuck, wanting to change things that cannot, AT THE MOMENT, be changed. Best thing to do is turn everything off and just live your life until you get the call…that things have changed, there’s an opening, and it’s time to FIGHT BACK. Worrying and fretting over things you have no power to alter is just a waste of a good day. Because those thing just make you unhappy and eat up our lives, when there’s nothing to do about anything. So, eat the cookies, sing ad dance, listen to good music, watch silly things on tv, read books that make you laugh or allow you to believe that vampires are our friends and it’s humans who are the bad guys (so true). The earth can shake us off, anytime it likes. It’s been hit by bigger things than us. We allowed what’s happening to happen. Men (that’s a joke in and of itself) have never allowed any voices but their own to be heard and that’s why we are in this mess. Now they are all whining about how smart women are and how many degrees we’re getting with much better grades and boo hoo. If we become extinct that’s okay too. Maybe wherever we end up they will have better cookies. This place is a bad play written by an idiot. All we can do is get out of our seat, leave the theater, and go for a pizza, while it plays itself out. At the moment there’s nothing to do, so relax, tune out and turn everything off until the time is right to act. Many hugs and happy thoughts being sent your way, my friend, ❤️
Well said!!! Yes, enjoy all moments. Thanks for dropping by and I hope the
week ahead is filled with moments of joy, comfort and unexpected delights!!! 🙂
It’s very good to see you! Also cookie salad. I happen to be aware of cookie salad; I watched this ep of Molly Yeh’s show. Enjoy!
https://www.foodnetwork.com/recipes/sweet-cookie-salad-with-homemade-cookies-and-mandarins-5361143
Yes!!! Cookie salad!!! Thank you, I’m so glad there’s so many creative people in the world, love it!!! 🙂
Hope the week ahead treats you kindly, filled with unexpected delights!!! 🙂
And you, too. It’s always a brighter day when I see a post from you!
My hands are still up! Nice to see and hear your cucu from the rabbit hole! 🤗💖
PS: Scotty, beam me up! 😬👽
Yes!!! 😉 lol
Hope this week treats you well and we all crawl up from the rabbit hole soon! 🙂
Nice to see you posting again, Donna! 🙂 These troubled times are disconcerting for us all, and your message is full of encouragement. 🌞 Love the Carol Burnett quote!👌The weather should be warming up, so I can actually go outside more. Hibernation tends to get depressing after a while. And I hope this week will be kind to you. 🌹 Have some cookie salad. 🍪
All the caring, kindness and support I receive from so many people makes these difficult times so much easier. 🙂
I just saw the upcoming forecast and wow, it’s going to be Spring for a week and I’m going to enjoy every minute!!!
Cookie salad, cake salad, is there pizza salad, hmmm, maybe I’ve misunderstood salads?? 😉
Thanks for everything dear Debbie and go soak up those rays and warm days!!! Giant gentle hugs xoxo
You’re very welcome, Donna. 🤗 Yes, I’m so looking forward to the warming temps, starting with today! 🌞 Look what I found! 🍕
https://www.simplyrecipes.com/pizza-salad-recipe-7636624
Drooling!!! Can we just take everything yummy and add ‘salad’ to it, does that work? 😉
I’m watching the snow and ice melt away, feels so wonderful!!! 🙂
All the best, always xoxox
Nothing is well at the moment it seems. Good to find a new post from you in my notifications. Made this chilly, rainy day better! Thanks.
Luckily we’re all in this together and anytime I can make anything better, awesome!!!!! 😉
Hope the rest of the week is good to you and I’d love to see some of that rain instead of the endless snow!!! 😉
RE: “I’m not sure if the world is crazy or just a little unwell”
If you can’t tell it means you are deeply asleep, as most people are.
The world has been continuously crazy for centuries and beyond.
And when people say “the world is crazy” they typically mean the world/OTHER people, usually the governing authorities, are crazy but not they themselves, they themselves are sane, of course. Yet, curiously, no one typically offers an good explanation on why the world is crazy.
Have you ever wondered WHY the world is crazy?
How do you explain it intelligently?
Do you have a coherent explanation for the craziness of the world that makes sense (religious fantasies are obviously excluded because they only “make sense” and are “valid” to fantasy lovers but never to reality-based truth-seekers. Since everyone knows the world is crazy and the world has gotten CRAZIER over millennia despite religions and a global majority of religious individuals it means religions/religious folks have always been major causal parts in the craziness production)?
Wouldn’t the recognition of the underlying causes of this craziness be instructive in terms of HOW we should tackle it to manifest real change out of the craziness?
The WHOLE big picture (not just a part of the big picture) that makes up the human condition, that explains the craziness of the world (if you ever genuinely wondered WHY it is that the world is crazy), that describes human conduct over millennia is the hegemony of the 2 married human pink elephants in the room (and has never been on clearer display than with the deliberate global Covid Scam atrocity) — see “The 2 Married Pink Elephants In The Historical Room –The Holocaustal Covid-19 Coronavirus Madness: A Sociological Perspective & Historical Assessment Of The Covid “Phenomenon”” … https://www.rolf-hefti.com/covid-19-coronavirus.html
Isn’t it about time for anyone to wake up to the ULTIMATE DEPTH of the human rabbit hole?
The official narrative is… “trust official science” and “trust the authorities” but as with these and all other “official narratives” they want you to trust and believe …
“We’ll know our Disinformation Program is complete when everything the American public [and global public] believes is false.” —William Casey, a former CIA director=a leading psychopathic criminal of the genocidal US regime
If you have been injected with Covid jabs/bioweapons and are concerned, then verify what batch number you were injected with at https://howbadismybatch.com
“If we have learned anything in the past six years, it is that vaccinologists, doctors, and the government in general do not have good intentions and never did. The clear intention of everyone concerned was and is to make as much dirty money as possible, letting any amount of collateral damage slide, including a genocide and mass poisoning [with Covid-19 jabs]. The fact [is] that Big Pharma just murdered millions of people, with the full support of government, media, and “science”. With Covid, everyone is part of the fraud, many of them paid off, so no one has any reason to expose it, and big reasons to bury it.” — Miles Mathis, American author, in 2025
The world has a lot of layers to it, physically, emotionally, spiritually, politically,
well, just a whole lot going on all the time, it sure does keep us distracted from stuff
we should be paying attention too, that’s for sure. Sending you best wishes in this mixed up world. 🙂
I LOVE this!!! I think many of us can relate to just about everything you said! So great to see you blogging again … you’ve been missed! 🥰
It’s always nice when I can get back, I wish it was more often
but my health just won’t let me, but I emerge every now and then;
always glad my blogging family is there when I do!!! All the best, always. xox
Whenever you feel up to it, we’ll always be here waiting for you! I am sorry to hear you’re having health issues. Take care, my friend. xox
Sadly chronic and aging isn’t helping but we carry on and enjoy all we can. 🙂
Thank for dropping by, the smiles and warm wishes truly warm my soul. Take care my friend xox
I’ve given up stress, submerged myself in humor, and now only ask questions I already know the answers to… oh, and I have two new hips!
I would absolutely LOVE an alien invasion from a more intelligent life form, but if they were more intelligent, why would they come here?
Always good to see a post from you! Sending smiles, gentle hugs and much kindness.
Hip, hip hooray!!! 🙂
Humour is the answer to most problems or at least briefly forgetting said problems. 🙂
There must be other planets with more sense, for sure, or I hope.
Thank you and thank you for dropping by, hope things are going well for you and
now I have Shakira’s “Hips Don’t lie” in my head. 😉
All the best, always!!! xox